It has been on my heart for about a week now to start a new blog basically about my spiritual walk with Christ. I suppose my reason for doing it in a blog would be for accountability and support. I find that if people know about what I am doing, and are following along with my journey, it helps me to keep on track. Also, doing this publicly will allow others to encourage me, and maybe God can also use me as a witness to other people.
I constantly find myself drifting away from Gods word, and the reason for that is because i am not staying in his word. I am busying myself with too many things that cause distractions, and I think it is time to turn that around. I think i am finished with reading the Bible cover to cover. I have done that twice, and believe me it has been so wonderful. I think it is time that i dig deeper into the Bible and try to pull it apart and apply it to my life. I don't want to read the Bible to finish it, I want to read the Bible to grow and to learn to be more like my Savior.
My goal in life is not to be the best Christian there is, because clearly that is an impossible task. I am a failure when it comes to my faith, but God keeps picking me up and turning me around every single day. My goal is to allow God to work in my life the way He needs to. If i am constantly getting distracted by things of this world, I am not giving God room to change my life.
Have you ever been in the situation where you don't know where you want to start reading in the Bible? For me, that is quite common. I find myself asking God to open the Bible to where he wants to start. I have decided that i want to go through the Bible different books at a time..Either that or pick a chapter each day and then write about it. I think today I will start reading in 1 Timothy.
The book of Timothy is about Paul writing letters to Timothy. Timothy was a young assistant to Paul. At this point in time, Paul did not think he would be returning to Ephesus (the church that Paul had assigned Timothy to care for while Paul was gone). Paul was writing Timothy as a guide and a help to instruct Timothy on what he was to do.
1Timothy Chapter 1
Several thing stood out to me as i read this first Chapter.
Verse 5 "But the goal of our instruction is love from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith" How many times do we tend to close our hearts to other people when they disagree with what we believe in. We almost just want to stop talking and walk away to avoid conflict. We should not be closing our hearts to others, instead we need to be loving and show Gods love when we teach other people about our faith. I know when I get frustrated I do not always speak with a pure heart. This is an area that i need to work on, and with God's help i can learn to speak with love when situations get tough.
Verse 15 "...Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, among whom I am foremost of all." I love this so much. I constantly need to remind myself that Jesus came for me. I am the one that put him on the Cross and it was my actions and sins that left each lash on his back. I am guilty and full of sin, but Jesus Christ gave his life to give me the precious gift of eternal life. Forever i owe my life to Him.
Last Verse. Verse 19 "...fight the good fight, keeping the faith and a good conscience, which some have rejected and suffered shipwreck in regard to their faith." I want to keep fighting. I want to gain victory over my sins. I do not want to fall into sin over and over again. But i know that until the day i die i will keep sinning. All i can do is ask the Lord to forgive me and to keep pushing me onward fighting this battle. One day i will win, and one day I will be with my Heavenly Father again.
Until the day that I die, I pray that the Lord gives me strength to keep pushing forward living the life that he gave to me. I want to make him proud, and when I reach the pearly gate I want to hear him say "Well done, good and faithful Servant"
Jaimee
